today's feeling: trapped.

isn't it a great feeling? specially when it has to do with lots of different scenarios in your life. everything is one big cage. everything. some cages are dirty, rusted, and leaking. others are diamond encrusted. but they're all still cages. awesome.

yeah put a bullet in my head.

no please. do it.










and the shower keeps running.....

my near future is looking really good and i couldnt be more excited. i haven't told anyone my plans for fear of jinxing them. even though these plans are still kind of a bubble in the air, i know they wont be for long. but i can feel it life is going to give me a break this time and i'm finally going to take a crack at this growing up thing. all i know is that by my 22nd birthday i better be far from here. you got 9 months life get with it.

its 95 fucking degrees of hot humidness.
this shit is pissing me off.
everything is sticky.
i fucking hate summer.

last nights recap:

- saw Cypress Hill and thier ginourmous blown up buddha. that was pretty sweet.

- saw some skank literally getting finger banged in front of us. no literally theres video to prove it.

- began to enjoy Talib Kweli until i get ass raped and steph gets felt up.

- ate some pretty dope rolled tacos & lemonade. " dude roll tacos and a salad what more do you want"

- and ran out of there as fast as we could as soon as we heard My Chemical ass juice start to play.

oh yeah and it was free compliments of the amazing ms. ktan. minus the tacos those were 5 duckets.

couldn't update yesterday cos i was too busy crashing.

Common and Jurassic 5 at USD yesterday, fucking amazing.
seriously such a great show. The fucking DJ was 'Super Rad' (haha). Common humped a girl onstage and steph boiled over in envy. I didn't however get to see all of J5's set cos of incident mentioned below. Whatever man, Common break danced thats all i have to say.

what wasn't rad, me grabbing the receipt instead of the ticket and having to walk back uphills, downhills and stairs to get it. not to mention in pumps half a size too small. thats what i get for trying to be hot. happens.

mmmmmm.....

cream cheese on warm toasty wheat bread, with a tall glass of strawberry Quik = a pretty sweet ending night.

so as of today i know what it feels like to actually be attacked by dogs.


COOL.

dont be stupid, be a smarty.
come and join the Nazi party!

go watch The Producers.


thanks for coming down timmys. hahaha.

i just came back from watching HOSTEL. hmm it wasn't much of a horror film, more like physic. thriller. It wasn't all that bad, i mean the plot line is totally gay, but visually its pretty good. Gruesome as hell, lots of blood and limbs. Sometimes even a little too gory that it was actually kinda funny in a ridiculous kinda way, like the gushing of puss when some japanese girl gets her hanging eyeball cut off. I dunno. I personally give it a B-. I do recommend you watch it though. Oh yeah be prepared to get carded at the ticket window and maybe even the door to the theatre by a random security dude like we did. Cos the movie is pretty much soft-core porn with blood and torture.






...kinda like Erotic Nights of The Living Dead with the bonus Orgy of the Dead. (thank you Best Buy dude)

juan helped me fix dd's wireless woooooooot.


<3 steph

i need this old train to break down,
oh please just let me please break down....



you want a you're break? you can have it.

wow. its really great stuff like this that make me feel like an ignorant Mexican. I mean being Mexican is amazing. There is so much of our own culture that we dont even celebrate, not because we dont want to but because we just don't know. and that sucks.

Anyway these tons of pictures were taken in Old Town. We were walking by the cemetery when we spotted these chalk drawings on the ground. Because Old Town has changed so much some unmarked graves have been paved over to make way for streets and sidewalks. The only thing that remain are markers on the floor that read "grave site" so i guess people know that there is someone buried under there. Well yesterday being the first day of Dia de los Muertos these chalk artists draw skeletons and flowers to give the forgotten graves personalities and to honor them as well. i think they did this last year too. i think theyre beautiful. anyway enjoy.

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we had cuddle weather today. it was so awesome. i love it when its cloudy and just enough rain falls. YAY ITS PEACOATS AND HOODIE SEASON!

Saw Waiting with Steph and Rubi tonight. It's a funny movie, i expected funnier though. I mean i really liked it and all, but having the cast it does i did expect a little more laugh out loud stuff. Especially with Dane Cook in it and all. The trailers make it seem like Dane has a bigger role than he actually does, but the handful of scenes he does have are pretty hilarious. Point is i guess, i enjoyed it so you should definitely go and watch it.

they hold it all together as i stand back in envy
is there a hurting heart behind that smile










fucking this prov.
thanks for existing.

fucking wow.
if you guys aren't hooked on LOST yet, you should be.
its fucking great.

America's Next Top model season 5 starts in 5minutes.
but more importantly:
LOST season 2 at 9pm!
YES!

hi guys. i started a cookie jar hurricane Katrina relief fund at my mom's 99cents store. the money is going to the victims through the American Red Cross. i put more jars in the businesses around ours and i'm picking them up in a week so hopefully it all goes well. so if you guys want to help out commment on this first so i can keep track. i can only accept cash sorry. so if you want to send it make sure you double envelope it and seal it well. heres the name and address:

A-Z GENERAL MERCHANDISE
3123 E Plaza Blvd. National City, CA. 91950

thank you so much for your help guys!!